Remember the 1980s Animated Series, Robotech?

I do. I dearly loved the Transformers’ only Autobot jet, and had my grandma Alice birthday-gift it to me as a toy PRECICELY because it transformed EXACTLY like how genuine anime-correct Robotech mech-battle toys transformed.

I was in love with the series hero, Rick Hunter, in love the way a sci-fi anime-stricken lad younger than puberty would most deeply be. I identified closely with Rick’s girlfriend not as a transgender thing (I didn’t want to be her), but in that, in place of jealousy I trans-spiritually felt the beauty of her sorrow: she never knew from episode to episode, if those dangeorous space missions he flew would finally bring his end, but he wouldn’t be the singular hero of the series without that constant peril. In that way, the infinate macho of his manhood became the seat of her most delicate womanly longing; THAT is what I identified with. Indeed, I fantasized about me somehow being equally loved and cherished by him as he cherished her, even as I flew along side him in missions in my own Robotech mech, in his squadron.

Why am I also tagging this post trans liberation? Because I realize just now, a stylistic choice common to the anime style of the series incidentally also meant that Rick Hunter’s face was so lean and delicate as to be profoundly androgynous. He could, in his face, easily have the face of a real man who presents only the ambiguity of his gender not even in his shoulders, but in the undecided question of the shape of his face. He was boyish, if not girly, not as a poltical or sexual statement, but as an artistic understanding that his manhood was in the honor and valor of his life’s mission, but that the body bringing that valor forth was as wan and delicate as a body’s face could be.

SECONDHAND NEWS

(for Mason)

I know—you wanted a man

To give you something that I can’t

When times get low

You don’t care who we were

Can’t you cruise on by, pick me up in your car—

Your daddy, he doesn’t approve

My mom, says I got nothin’ left to lose

When tomorrow comes on through

& you’re gonna break my heart

Why don’t you stop on by and see what more we can start—

(well, I’m ready to start)

—BUT—

My love’s just second-hand news

Just some second-hand blues—

Yeah, second-hand news,

Just some hand-me-down blues—

I know—you got nothing for me

I know, I’m nothin’ you’d wanna see

I been down so long

I’ve been Second Place enough

Why don’t you just pull it out and

Let’s get down to my stuff

—BUT—

I’m just second-hand news

Guess I’m second-hand news

Yeah—I’m just second-hand news,

My love’s just second-hand news…